THE PRESSURE IS FUCKING ON....AGAIN!!!!!

im back, from the one week raya break, it was fun, though i cant say the same for the papers that i will soon receive by the end of this week.

and if u think that i am going to turn this blog into a RANT-ONLY zone, you are absolutely correct!!!! FUCKING correct!!!!!!!

i just don't get some people, u noe, jus because im different from the others, this does not fucking make me horrible. ive tried so hard to impress, ive done what i was told to do, base on the guidelines given, and what do i FUCKING GET??????????? more criticism. ONLY ME!!!! yes, me and ONLY ME!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! some people jus don't understand the effort, energy and time i put into these useless "MATTERS".

OMFL!!!! OMFL!!!!!!

you noe its as if things couldnt get any harder, i get told boast around to fucking do things for people, and not get shown any appreciation for it at the end of the day!!!! this keeps going on and on and on and on till i don't know when, don't FUCKING ask me what it is, coz i cant bear with it.

SACE is 35 fucking days from rearing its apocalyptic ugly head and i am still stuck in the middle of this SHIT. others, on the other hand, have progressed.

all i have to say is....

FUCK YOU and YOU!!!!!!

2 more weeks to the raya holiday!

hahaah! i cant wait but first, TRIAL EXAMINATION! must ace it!

I need.....

Motivation to do Bio exercise without looking at the answers.

Motivation to do long Bio exercise....

Motivation to do SACE exercises for the trials.....

NEED NEED NEED!

Grateful and Thankful.....

That i've found friends who really really understand me. Friends who don't come to me just for what i term the "business talk". bottom line is that, i don't care how many of them there are, though not many, im blessed to be able to actually "connect" with them.

sharing opinions, views and experiences with me.....

sitting next to me in the bus, jus for a simple chit chat......

listening to me complain, regardless of how many times i do so......

offering me a seat in the cafe......just for a simple chit chat

telling me their problems *i consider myself a good listener*

ok people, don't confuse this with anger or big talk, im not. im just expressing my opinion. it may not be 100% true, but this is what i feel. what i gain for the past 15 months here......finally something positive from me. hehe.....

and if u wanna judge me, im fine with it, go ahead and do it, provided u list down all ur flaws first. its ur world, im jus living in it. :)

i jus wana say sometimes i am very afraid of admitting certain matters mainly because i don't want to be misunderstood. but come to think of it, nobody's perfect. :D

IM NOT PERFECT, NEITHER ARE YOU.....we are equal and different in our own ways.....

Conclusion

let X ~ I am 100% confident that this thing happens due to one of these two reasons:

1) Low self-confidence between both or one of the "parties"

OR

2) Tepuk sebelah tangan


nough said,if u dono ask me